mmph.

there's a practice session for ballroom for three hours this afternoon in county lecture theatre, and it's kind of a drop in thing, but i'm not sure i can be bothered to go. i should go, just for the sake of getting out of my room and doing something. but i've also got to tidy up my room - laundry is the equivalent of $3.00 to wash and $2.00 to dry, so i've been conserving, and that means there's a huge pile of clothes on my chair that i've worn, but they're not dirty yet because i don't want to pay for wash.

anyway. i'm cranky and i'm bored. but i am starting to settle in, which feels really nice. and people have started calling me "jess," which i love. i also feel like i've kept myself in the process of settling in. that's big; in the past my tendency was to mold somewhat blindly (and i say blindly because it was never completely or dangerously, it was just foolishly and without proper thought) to where i was and who i was with, but now i feel like i've given enough to relate, but not enough to change. it feels really nice to be me and be comfortable around people who would normally really intimidate me.

i think i'm going to organize my room and then go dancing for a bit. i thought i needed to vent, but i don't really even feel like venting. also, seeing as how i have nothing to vent about, it wouldn't have helped anyway, i don't think.

so whiny, aren't i? this is what happens when i get bored. which is why i'm going to go move.

have a lovely afternoon : )