yes, they named her after the dawn . . .

i watched sleeping beauty while i walked on the treadmill yesterday. yes, really. but i only watched through the scene in the woods, you know? the i know you, i walked with you once upon a dream scene? that was always my favorite when i was little. and i think i've officially changed my favorite princess movie. i always thought it was cinderella, but i think the whole living/dancing in the woods thing is much more my style.

it's very important that i know these things.

i need to write a good song. i've been popping them out for the past few months like nobody's business, but they've all been emotional-vomit songs, if you know what i mean, and i'm tired of that. i want to produce a calculated, thoughtful song with lines that are clever and play with their words. a truthful song would be nice, too, but those are really hard to acheive. well. hard is the wrong word. truthful songs are just time-consuming to write because you have to re-write them so many times. at least i do.

anyway. it'll be awhile, but i've got awhile for the first time in awhile.

i'm so tired.

i've been watching a lot of movies lately, which is wonderful. i watched the last king of scotland with mom the other night. you know, i get really tense when i watch movies that have any kind of drama in them. i get really caught up in the characters, too, and characters like idi amin make me chew my fingernails. because they're fascinating and violent and so terrifying because they pull things out of the people around them that those people never knew they were capable of.

i will be really interested to see how many things are pulled out of me this summer at the hospital.

when i watched the science of sleep i didn't really get all that caught up in the characters, though. i just kind of laughed at them from the outside. i mean, i genuinely appreciated their quirkiness, but i'm not sure i understood the point of it. usually quirkiness in movies is making a statement, but then again the statement may have been to not make a statement. stephanie did say, after all, that randomness is very hard to construct and that organization will find it's way in if you're not very careful.

hm. i need to think about it more. or watch it again. because i think it was really full of character development that i just missed, you know? i was too focused on the quirkiness, which was really wonderfully funny sometimes.

i also was just in a kind of foul mood earlier. definitely not in the mood to pick out the subtleties in a european film. it probably would have been good practice for the fall. but french-quirky is a lot different than british-quirky, i think, so maybe not.

oh, wonderfulness! i showed bridgette the drum circle . . . it was the first time i'd been downtown since being back for the summer.

man, i really do love it there. and then we went to old europe and ran into some of the crew and ate our lovely desserts and tomorrow, we will bathe the grumpy old horse. he's going to be so frustrated. but. he will be pretty.