chim-chimeny

so.

i have been quiet lately.

i think quiet is the wrong word. i've been using it to describe myself today, but i think thoughtful is more accurate. i wish that i always had time to be thoughtful. and i don't mean "thoughtful" as in considerate, because i'm afraid i may always be too thoughtful to be truly considerate, and i also feel like being considerate should not exist unless it's wrapped up in a very big love, so i try to avoid doing it too much because big love is rare, though less rare than it used to be in my life, so i do feel like i may be able to be more considerate in the future, at least i hope so; anyway, the point is that i mean thoughtful as in full of thought, introspective, that sort of thing.

over-analyzing, perhaps?

of course not . . .

there is a line between analyzing a whole freaking lot and over-analyzing and i'm pretty sure i'm dancing on this side of it, with a foot that strays across every now and then. or everyday, depending on how you look at it.

i saw the nanny diaries with the roomie yesterday and it was very fun - it made me miss my boys. and it made me want to be a mom real bad, but i got over it; i'm back here for now.

it was great to get out, too. the apartments are so lovely that i forget to leave them and then i get a little claustrophobic without realizing it. damn subconscious - i always forget about it . . .

*da*dum*ching*

but i got out today - i went home for church and lunch with the family, jenn, and jason. and then i got my birthday present (which is a very lovely camera that will work wonderfully for documenting england) and my bike, and then i proceeded to run out of gas on the interstate.

and then i played with my new camera and called people and watched the cars go by until the gas brigade came to save me.

mmph. i need to get a good post out, but apparently it's not ready yet. my heart works so slowly on things! it definitely cannot keep up with crazy school social work life. but it's getting there - being able to keep up, i mean.

i do have time, i suppose : )

today was a good one. and i think it's getting ready to be officially over because i'm about to crawl into bed.

mmhm.