Monday, July 2, 2007

well, bother.

it's been that kind of a day.

a bothersome one, i mean. closed up patients and awkward encounters that reveal how gaurded i am and the dashing of my idealist hopes. again.

*sigh*

it's ok.
i'm ok.

except not really at all. how am i supposed to open up in all this? i really don't get this process.

i feel like i'm being bombarded from almost every angle in little ways. but they add up. and i'm being asked to put my walls down at the same time.

i can't.

i don't think i can communicate how big of a leap we're talking here.

with that being said, i'm not going to stand on the edge this evening.

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